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Amnesia couldn't make them forget their 20-year bond or the special love Alkies and Addix develop over the years... (Story fictionalized enough for total anonymity...based on a recent Journey through the Valley of the Shadow of Death...) By Daley Stepper A voice in his Heartmind said time and effort and expense to help others in recovery is more and more the reason for every sunny day. Some wonder how we guard against boredom, and being “good” all the time. Religiously. Pretending to have only moral thoughts. (That doesn't sound like me or any sponsors I have had...). It doesn't matter how much or what we do, the recompense is always far greater than any expenditure. And over the years, the rewards get bigger, deeper, and some are actually quite mystical.
One fellow told me
about one of his experiences that ranged over many years and more than a few
miles, but was never more than a prayer and a phone away. It seems this old
workhorse somehow picked up some strange viral passengers, and after some simple
surgery, had a seizure and wound up back in the hospital. Bad became worse.
Pneumonia was apparently knocked out a couple of times, but some strange
gutter-running demon was hell-bound to end this sponsor's life. Even the docs
seemed ready to pull the final plugs.
Strangely, after
coming out of the worst of it, this old-timer AA-NA sponsor was impressed with
two images: His caring and relentless doctor, and a fellow he hadn't seen for a
long time. They didn't understand the sudden turn-around in his health. In the
Heartmind of the old-timer, a voice suggested timidly, “Some one prayed for
you.” Why would the image of this one man out of many he had worked with. The
situation early on was in Silicon Valley, where the one was a tech writer and
the other, a programmer. Through mutual interests and humor they hit it off
well. The big programmer was the quiet type, but one day on a sunny lunch
meeting near a small lake, he spoke up about the old-timer's drinking and
drugging. Of course, it was hard to figure what he was truly asking. Was he just
being nice and showing interest in a new friend? Or did he know someone who
might be a toper or doper? It was a bit of a mystery, so the big guy took home a
12 X 12 and a Big Book. Sometime later, another sunny lunch a la' Silli Valley,
they were walking around the small lake again. “You know those guys in those
books?”
“You mean like
Dr. Bob and Bill W.?”
“That's me. I'm
them.” His voice was quiet and calm. No arguments. No bluster or fluster of ego
or frothy emotional reaction. “I'm like them.” I couldn't believe it, for here
was an honest church-going man with a mental masterpiece for a mind... reduced
to the simplest of terms. The most direct humility and honesty. Since he was
primarily involved with narcotics, he was introduced to Narcotics Anonymous.
There were some rough times ahead for him, though. Smoking Paranoia Weed had
done its evil damage: the FBI had his home and shower wired to hear and see all
that he did. That was merely the tip of the effects of the quality of grass he
was used to smoking. He admitted later, though, that he would smoke
anything...and did. Click Below to Read Daley Stepper's Talkin' A.A. Articles
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